He's alive...at least, I think.

Hey, I'm back kinda alive, a bit depressed doing better though. Today was kinda a hard day so I've got alot on my mind. Lets see where to start. Well I've been a bit down as of late cause my girlfriend left me awhile ago and I havn't been very happy since. We were together for over a year and I cared alot about her but she didn't care about me as much I guess. Being with her is the only time I remember being truly happy, and that really got to me for awhile. I feel better now and I'm finaly over her I'm just moving on now. I even gave the whole dating thing a shot a couple of times but that didn't go to well, so I think I might just hang back for awhile and wait for somthing to happen.... Trying to start enjoying life again now and it's goiong alright depending on the day. Went to Banff on a music tour, that was pretty fun. My roommates were cool and alot of fun and I also got to know someone alot better which was really cool. We found out we have alot in common with the family issues we're both having (which really suck) so at least I have another person to talk to now and the bonus is that she's probably the biggest fan of E-Town I've meet and in one reason I keep doing this. All in all it was an alright trip. I'm feeling better now that I'm at home and not at school having to see people. Today was hard. I made an ass of myself last night to a good friend of mine who I couldn't live with myself if i messed our friendship up. I hope she knows I sorry and that I am happy for her no matter what she does, as long as she's happy. In the last bit I've lost some friends but I've also made some really cool new ones so I guess I'll live. well.... not to much else going on right now besides school stress but I'm done IB art show now so it's not so bad. It's IB exam month right now and I only have one so it's not so bad, and the good part is all IB students get to skip classes this month becuase of exams, so I'll have to put that to good use....... Writting made me feel a little better, I'm feeling pretty normal now which is good ... it's been awhile. This is my first big rant so I don't know how this should go meh.. Well I guess that's all for today, Maybe later I'll have something of substance to rant about. and this is the end of my first rant..... Ben H